SORRY? SORRY FOR WHAT?

     I think it's hilarious how many "friends", or even better, "acquaintances" I have that have totally either screwed me over, hung me out to dry, or threw me under the bus, but assume that I've forgotten or that all is forgiven, just because some time has passed. 

 Um, no assholes' I haven't forgotten, nor will I, and by the way, fuck you very much because I don't even get so much as an apology for your ill behavior. Now I will have to admit that I am a forgiving person, but that's not to say that an apology isn't expected. An apology is my validation. To ignore, or not apologize is to basically say "fuck you" to me, meanwhile, you're the one that's trying to  reconnect with me, not the other way around.

    Now, I am by no means claiming to be a perfect friend, but I know when I fuck up, and have no problems with owning up to it, and apologizing for it, and  somehow making it right again. This is what should be done. You say "I'm sorry", you admit you were wrong, and then you do whatever you have to do to make nice. What I don't understand is why the hell that's so difficult. 

     I remember I was sitting in a waiting room one day, and there was this completely adorable little girl, approximately 4, and she was just having a ball playing pretend while her mother sat reading an old Ladies Home Journal. The little girl came towards me and knocked over my purse and peered up at me all giggles. I looked to her mother, who wasn't paying any attention at all. I'm guessing that article must have been very important. So I of course looked to the little girl as I picked up my belongings and said "That wasn't very nice. We don't push people's things like that because it could hurt someone's feelings or you might break something. Do you wanna hurt my feelings, and what if you had broken something very important?" No response at all, completely blank stare. "We should say we're sorry when we make a mistake, can you say I'm sorry?" Nope, she wasn't doing it, she looked down grimacing, as if to say "Oh my God, how dare you ask me to say such a thing!". I tried multiple times to get the little girl to say sorry for intentionally dumping over my belongings only to realize that this was obviously not something that was customary to her, and her mother's total disregard for her daughter's actions only confirmed my assumptions.
     This is what I see everyday. Apathy. It is disappointing to know that this is what the world is becoming. Why can't we just say we're sorry? I'm sorry that you don't know how to say you're sorry. It must appear to some as a sign of weakness. If they say they're sorry, they are admitting they're loss or something. 

     Well guess what people? An apology is nothing more than a written or spoken expression of one's regret, remorse, or sorrow for having insulted, failed, injured, or wronged another. It should be just as easy for someone to apologize as it is to say please and thank you. It should be a core value that we instill in our young people so that they become valuable assets to society. 
     Well now comes the time when I suck it up and accept that I will never receive these apologies that I feel I'm owed. I don't need them by any means to feel better, it's not that, I'm just hoping that maybe humanity and decency smack them in the face. I just want the world to be a better place. It would be great if everyone set out to be a better version of themselves everyday, and being mature enough to apologize for anything is a start.